Dear...hmm..

Damn, I don’t even know how to start telling you this.
I wanted to tell you how much you mean to me, even if you don’t know it and don’t even want to hear it and care about it.
So, it goes like that: when I first came here I was a nobody, or you can also call it a ‘troll’. I never got to know anyone a lot so I don’t have a lot of memories here. But at least I know you, and that makes me feel different. You changed me.
You showed me a side of myself that I have never known before, although you’re not the first guy whom I fell for ‘truly madly deeply’. The feelings that simply burst when I see you are totally different than the usual ones. Maybe that’s why I can’t forget you, even if I always say I want to. I admire your intelligence and your shyness, even if you often disappointed me, and I wish we had more things in common.
I always thought you were the dumbest guy in school because you’re almost 17 and haven’t had a girlfriend yet because you’re so shy and not that sociable and talkative. But I wondered why so many girls like you, and I found the answer. This shield you’re wearing for protection makes girls think you’re innocent and very sweet, and a lot want to take it down.
I may not be one of those girls, because I know I don’t have the strength to do it and I’m sure you don’t even want me to be the first.
So I’ll just do everything I usually do: go and hang out with my friends and walk round the football pitch, so I can see you training or hanging out with your friends, playing football. Everything that I have told you should be forgotten and so should be my attempts of having you for myself.
I thought that summer is going to be totally different, because there’s no school and no rules. But I know what kind of person I am and I know I have a lot of weaknesses and no strength points. You made me see the real me, the loser me, the coward me, and I thank you for that. Even if we share only an occasional ‘hi’, you showed me who I am, and I got very disappointed.
We should just go on and pretend nothing happened. Everything is going to be ok!

Plec de tot, departe de tot ce-am avut..

..dar am pierdut.
De zilele cand stateam cu frica la ora de mate ca ma scoate la tabla profa de mate.
De momentele frumoase petrecute cu colegii.
De toate clasele din liceu.
De o persoana care nu va stii niciodata ce simt pentru ea.
De vesnica intrebare "Cu ce ma imbrac azi?!".
De proful de fizica.
De ghiozdanul greu.
De elevii ce fumau in spatele scolii.
De meciurile din cupa scolii.
De banchet.
De evaluarile nationale din clasa a VIII a.
De orele de leneveala de sport.
De covrigii si de granita de la magazinul de la colt.
De aglomeratia de la magazin.
De profa de chimie.
De scaunul care are litera I pe el.
De toaleta cu 3 cabine.
De geamul dintre etaje de pe casa scarilor.
De palugile de gardieni.

O sa-mi fie dor de tot, dar..

Viata e o calatorie, nu o destinatie!

Tu.

Iti multumesc ca ma faci mereu sa rad.
Iti multumesc ca ma intelegi.
Iti multumesc ca ai incredere in mine.
Iti multumesc ca am numai amintiri frumoase cu tine.
Iti multumesc ca uneori ma scoti afara ca sa ma imbeti.
Iti multumesc ca ai hazul si veselia care le ai.
Iti multumesc ca ma accepti asa cum sunt.
Iti multumesc ca imi suporti toate gandurile spuse cu voce tare.
Iti multumesc ca mereu imi sari in ajutor.
Iti multumesc ca ma lasi sa plang pe umarul tau cand am nevoie.
Iti multumesc ca ma iubesti asa cum sunt, cu bune si rele.
Iti multumesc ca zambesti mereu, fara sa tradezi nici macar un pic din tristetea pe care o ai in adancul sufletului tau.

Iti multumesc ca imi faci viata mai frumoasa!

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