Innebunesc.

In fiecare secunda.
Mereu am senzatia asta, mai ales in anumite momente ale zilei, cand simt ca nu mai pot sa suport inca un minut.
Un minut din ce? Probabil din viata asta. Si totusi suport. Si acel minut. Si minutul de dupa. Si restul minutelor ce urmeaza.
Si totusi, senzatia ramane. Nu stiu daca este ceva normal, nu prea am stat sa ma gandesc la chestia asta.
Poate este un semn ca vreau sa scap de ce fac mereu, de rutina zilnica. Da, stiu ca sunt in vacanta, si ca faptul ca nu exista scoala ar trebui sa ma multumeasca, dar in vacanta asta am fost foarte repetitiva. Aceleasi chestii in fiecare zi.
Mi-ar placea sa alerg pe o campie impreuna cu cei mai buni prieteni ai mei, una uitata de lume, sa ma bucur un moment de viata. Apoi mi-ar placea sa ma scald intr-o cascada limpede si sa fiu singura, uitata de lume.
As vrea sa fac multe schimbari in viata mea.

But, still, good things come for those who wait!

Just let the music play.

Da. Ce ne-am face fara ea? Daca stau bine sa ma gandesc, ea e singura care te asculta cu adevarat. Se gaseste in orice gen si iti transmite orice stare. Este prietenul care te ajuta imediat cum ai nevoie, cand restul lumii nu este prin preajma. Este 'persoana' cu care te iei de mana cand iti vine sa plangi si cand vrei sa fii tu, doar cu tine insati, si nimeni altcineva. Este acolo cand esti fericit, curge vioi si prin cea mai mica vena din corpul tau, si totusi este acolo cu tine. Este tine acolo pentru tine cand cuvintele refuza sa mai iasa din gura ta pentru a explica anumite lucruri. Muzica ti se potriveste ca o manusa, indiferent de personalitate. Fiecare are aceasta muzica. De aceea este asa importanta. Poate fi prietenul de nadejde cand ai nevoie cel mai mult.

Asta inseamna pentru mine muzica.

Innocence.

Waking up to see that everything is ok
The 1st time in my life and now it`s so great
Slowing down I look around and I`m so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn`t change a thin about it...
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that you will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don`t go away
I need you now
And I`ll hold on to it
Don`t you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe
Not a single tear
The 1st time in my life and now It`s so clear
Feel calm
I belong I`m so happy here
It`s so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn`t change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that you will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don`t go away
Versuri Avril Lavigne - Innocence
de pe http://www.versuri.ro
I need you now
And I`ll hold on to it
Don`t you let it pass you by

It`s a state but you think you`re dreaming
It`s the happiness inside that you`re feeling
It`s so beautiful and makes you wanna cry
It`s a state but you think you`re dreaming
It`s the happiness inside that you`re feeling
It`s so beautiful and makes you wanna cry
It`s so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant
It makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Please don`t go away
Cause i need you now
And i`ll hold on to it
Don`t you let it pass you by...

I used to be lovedrunk..

...but now I'm hungover.

Da, am stat si m-am gandit. Ce e cu atata suferinta pe capul meu? De ce mereu stau si ma gandesc la cum va fi si imi fac griji, in loc sa ma bucur de momentele placute din viata mea? De ce mereu ma plang? Cred ca si eu m-am saturat de mine, si, daca si eu am ajuns la concluzia asta, sunt curioasa cei din jurul meu ce cred despre mine.
Oricum, zilele astea am invatat ca, atunci cand cauti ceva, nu apare la comanda, ci atunci cand te astepti mai putin. Asa ca, de ce sa te amagesti atat, cand poti sa-ti traiesti viata din plin, fara regrete, si sa te bucuri de fiecare surpriza care ti se intampla. Intr-o zi se va intampla ca acel ceva sa fie chiar sub nasul tau, si sa te ia prin surprindere. Daca este ceva valoros, merita asteptat.

Have a carefree life!

Dear...hmm..

Damn, I don’t even know how to start telling you this.
I wanted to tell you how much you mean to me, even if you don’t know it and don’t even want to hear it and care about it.
So, it goes like that: when I first came here I was a nobody, or you can also call it a ‘troll’. I never got to know anyone a lot so I don’t have a lot of memories here. But at least I know you, and that makes me feel different. You changed me.
You showed me a side of myself that I have never known before, although you’re not the first guy whom I fell for ‘truly madly deeply’. The feelings that simply burst when I see you are totally different than the usual ones. Maybe that’s why I can’t forget you, even if I always say I want to. I admire your intelligence and your shyness, even if you often disappointed me, and I wish we had more things in common.
I always thought you were the dumbest guy in school because you’re almost 17 and haven’t had a girlfriend yet because you’re so shy and not that sociable and talkative. But I wondered why so many girls like you, and I found the answer. This shield you’re wearing for protection makes girls think you’re innocent and very sweet, and a lot want to take it down.
I may not be one of those girls, because I know I don’t have the strength to do it and I’m sure you don’t even want me to be the first.
So I’ll just do everything I usually do: go and hang out with my friends and walk round the football pitch, so I can see you training or hanging out with your friends, playing football. Everything that I have told you should be forgotten and so should be my attempts of having you for myself.
I thought that summer is going to be totally different, because there’s no school and no rules. But I know what kind of person I am and I know I have a lot of weaknesses and no strength points. You made me see the real me, the loser me, the coward me, and I thank you for that. Even if we share only an occasional ‘hi’, you showed me who I am, and I got very disappointed.
We should just go on and pretend nothing happened. Everything is going to be ok!

Plec de tot, departe de tot ce-am avut..

..dar am pierdut.
De zilele cand stateam cu frica la ora de mate ca ma scoate la tabla profa de mate.
De momentele frumoase petrecute cu colegii.
De toate clasele din liceu.
De o persoana care nu va stii niciodata ce simt pentru ea.
De vesnica intrebare "Cu ce ma imbrac azi?!".
De proful de fizica.
De ghiozdanul greu.
De elevii ce fumau in spatele scolii.
De meciurile din cupa scolii.
De banchet.
De evaluarile nationale din clasa a VIII a.
De orele de leneveala de sport.
De covrigii si de granita de la magazinul de la colt.
De aglomeratia de la magazin.
De profa de chimie.
De scaunul care are litera I pe el.
De toaleta cu 3 cabine.
De geamul dintre etaje de pe casa scarilor.
De palugile de gardieni.

O sa-mi fie dor de tot, dar..

Viata e o calatorie, nu o destinatie!

Tu.

Iti multumesc ca ma faci mereu sa rad.
Iti multumesc ca ma intelegi.
Iti multumesc ca ai incredere in mine.
Iti multumesc ca am numai amintiri frumoase cu tine.
Iti multumesc ca uneori ma scoti afara ca sa ma imbeti.
Iti multumesc ca ai hazul si veselia care le ai.
Iti multumesc ca ma accepti asa cum sunt.
Iti multumesc ca imi suporti toate gandurile spuse cu voce tare.
Iti multumesc ca mereu imi sari in ajutor.
Iti multumesc ca ma lasi sa plang pe umarul tau cand am nevoie.
Iti multumesc ca ma iubesti asa cum sunt, cu bune si rele.
Iti multumesc ca zambesti mereu, fara sa tradezi nici macar un pic din tristetea pe care o ai in adancul sufletului tau.

Iti multumesc ca imi faci viata mai frumoasa!

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