It was once my life, it was my life at one time..

Got up early, found something's missing
My only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
And soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second,
Then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautful things.
I forgot that I might need,
To find out what life could bring.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
This trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
Now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

So many beautiful things...

Sometimes you feel huge. So huge, so that everyone sees you, but sees in you just the bad things, the bad qualities.
Sometimes you feel small. So small and tiny, nobody sees you. And then you wish to be bigger, not too big, big enough so that whom you want to see you can see you.
Sometimes you feel heavy. So heavy, nobody can move you. Nobody can take you away from that spot. Your feet feel stuck and if you want to go, you'll just stay there against your will.
Sometimes you feel light. So light, wind can almost blow you up. You're so easy, everything seems just... alright.
You feel huge when nobody likes you. You feel small when the one you care barely looks at you. You feel heavy when you don't want to leave 'heaven', 'cause you know an angel is going to pass by anytime. You feel light when you get that look you've been waiting for like, lots of days.
I guess we all get what we want.
I guees I'll kinda' never get what I, in the depth of my soul, really want, for once in my life.

Heavy and Small, like forever.

irinux.

[I don't care who the fuck reads my blog and what the hell he/she/it thinks. It's my fuckin' life, mu fuckin' blog and I write everything I fuckin' want in it. If you have good thoughts, tell them. If you have bad thoughts, keep your freakin' mouth shut.]